OK, after looking at it, I lost 20% of my bankroll tonight. It really hurt a lot, and I didn't realize how bad I was tilting because of two rough beats back to back (and I mean literally back to back, the first one happened and the second one happened two hands later on a different table.
(afterthought) The only good out of all this, is that I cleared just shy of $10 rake, so I am only really down about $25...
[b:5e77356bce]#1 Bad Beat[/b:5e77356bce]
** Game ID ******* starting - 2006-07-04 23:26:25
** Ask Me why [Hold 'em] (0.50|1.00 Fixed Limit - Cash Game) Real Money
- jwongqa sitting in seat 1 with $27.50
- abhinav sitting in seat 2 with $79.25
- Hork sitting in seat 3 with $45.00 [Dealer]
- ccc1433732r sitting in seat 4 with $97.75
- Nekosohana1 sitting in seat 5 with $38.50
- i_wanna_be_m sitting in seat 6 with $40.25
- danlouis sitting in seat 7 with $63.54
- MishaRu sitting in seat 8 with $11.25
- emile_q sitting in seat 9 with $24.50
- Turbo_Ted sitting in seat 10 with $69.63
ccc1433732r posted the small blind - $0.25
Nekosohana1 posted the big blind - $0.50
** Dealing card to Nekosohana1: 7 of Diamonds, 4 of Spades
i_wanna_be_m folded
danlouis called - $0.50
MishaRu folded
emile_q folded
Turbo_Ted called - $0.50
jwongqa folded
abhinav folded
Hork folded
ccc1433732r called - $0.50
Nekosohana1 checked
** Dealing the flop: 3 of Clubs, 7 of Spades, 7 of Clubs
ccc1433732r checked
Nekosohana1 checked
danlouis bet - $0.50
Turbo_Ted folded
ccc1433732r folded
Nekosohana1 raised - $1.00
danlouis raised - $1.50
Nekosohana1 called - $1.50
** Dealing the turn: 4 of Hearts
Nekosohana1 bet - $1.00
danlouis raised - $2.00
Nekosohana1 raised - $3.00
danlouis called - $3.00
** Dealing the river: Queen of Diamonds
Nekosohana1 bet - $1.00
danlouis raised - $2.00
Nekosohana1 raised - $3.00
danlouis raised - $4.00
Nekosohana1 called - $4.00
danlouis shows: Queen of Clubs, Queen of Spades
Nekosohana1 mucks: 7 of Diamonds, 4 of Spades
danlouis wins $18.25 from the main pot
End of game **********
#2 Bad Beat
** Game ID ******* starting - 2006-07-04 23:27:36
** PS I Love You [Hold 'em] (0.50|1.00 Fixed Limit - Cash Game) Real Money
- statman57 sitting in seat 1 with $15.75
- i_wanna_be_m sitting in seat 2 with $32.75
- skibum5797 sitting in seat 3 with $44.75
- jwongqa sitting in seat 4 with $36.25
- MishaRu sitting in seat 5 with $18.00 [Sitting out]
- GORDO1111 sitting in seat 6 with $14.25
- Nekosohana1 sitting in seat 7 with $42.37 [Dealer]
- BozoDeClown sitting in seat 8 with $7.50
- ccc1433732r sitting in seat 9 with $93.62
- whatdahell sitting in seat 10 with $6.65
BozoDeClown posted the small blind - $0.25
ccc1433732r posted the big blind - $0.50
GORDO1111 posted to play - $0.50
** Dealing card to Nekosohana1: 9 of Diamonds, 8 of Diamonds
whatdahell folded
statman57 called - $0.50
i_wanna_be_m folded
skibum5797 folded
jwongqa folded
GORDO1111 checked
Nekosohana1 called - $0.50
BozoDeClown called - $0.50
ccc1433732r checked
** Dealing the flop: 8 of Hearts, Jack of Diamonds, 5 of Clubs
BozoDeClown checked
ccc1433732r bet - $0.50
statman57 folded
GORDO1111 called - $0.50
Nekosohana1 called - $0.50
BozoDeClown called - $0.50
** Dealing the turn: 9 of Spades
BozoDeClown checked
ccc1433732r checked
GORDO1111 checked
Nekosohana1 bet - $1.00
BozoDeClown called - $1.00
ccc1433732r called - $1.00
GORDO1111 folded
** Dealing the river: 10 of Clubs
BozoDeClown checked
ccc1433732r bet - $1.00
Nekosohana1 raised - $2.00
BozoDeClown called - $2.00
ccc1433732r folded
Nekosohana1 shows: 9 of Diamonds, 8 of Diamonds
BozoDeClown shows: 7 of Clubs, 4 of Clubs
BozoDeClown wins $12.25 from the main pot
End of game *******
Between these two, I was full on nuclear, I have never really tilted before. I will steam a little, but I couldn't find a safe place to hide. All I could do was negate the damage. It's really discouraging to see that I have to go back now and try and work out the losses that I had (which are fairly small at $35. But it's more about the fact that I don't like seeing holes in my game. These were the catalysts to the fiaso that happened later, while I have no intention of quitting, I am feeling rather gunshy about playing right now. It's more of the fact that my variance should have been enough to negate this as well. And I was OK until I started tilting...
Anyway, not a bad beat bitch by any true reasoning, I am just a little discouraged that I allowed myself to lose so much because of these two hands. It wasn't fast, it was just consistet...a dollar or two a round until I finally said "fuck it" and shut it all off. I think it's good, otherwise I would have been down, $120.
*Whew* what a kick in the ass.
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