so the last few days i have been on one of my classic rushes...
last night at a wedding i mentioned it to jim.
I also at the same time commented that "eh it will be gone by monday..."
so at what point do you consider it just lucky and at what point do you say hey i am playing well and its paying off and its not just luck?.
also how do you think that you should avoid the down slide and devestation of losing everything you gained in the rush.
does it really all just come back to proper bankroll management ? i have come to the conclusion that i ma a gambler cause i generally dont if ever play with proper bankroll management. anyone else have this problem and if so anything that you do to combat playing outside your bankroll ?
personally i would rather not see this rush come to an end... but they always do...i usually withdraw a little (like my original buy in plus a little) then i crash and burn... and lose everything that is left ... i swear that i think i dont change the way i play and that it is just a bad string of events... many times i have heard people through the years say "hey with proper bankroll management that would never happen"... i just have never seen anyone that actually sticks to proper bankroll management... and that is rolling a fat bankroll at the same time ... just people that are nickeling and diming it breaking even or making an extra $20 a month or what ever...
I go on these fucking runs ... making thousands in a matter of days.... and i slip into this dream that this is what playing for a living ought to be like ... but its not reality.
ok so that was a little rambling ... i guess i have just been thinking about it all day , and someone told me something this weekend that was a real shock to the system and made me start thinking about what the fuck am i doing and why am I such a pussy at making changes in my own life.
